Too many

I have like 50 things that I feel like I should write about, bouncing around in my head right now and I can't seem to pin one down and its really pushing me to my limits. 

I think the biggest thing on my mind is how lonely I have been feeling lately. My two true best friends are off in Rhode Island and SoCal, and even though we haven't been talking as much lately I still know that they are there for me, and that we are going to have a kick ass summer together. The girls who I though were my best friends here have pretty much cut me out. I figured it would happen with one of them when she got a boyfriend, but I was surprised when she was still hanging out with the other friend. Fine. Whatever. I guess its time for me to move on anyways, but they could have at least grown some balls and said something to my face instead of just ignoring phone calls and texts. The worst part is that I still have to work with these girls. 

I see a few other friends on occasion but even then I don't really feel like I am connecting with them. I have gotten too good at not becoming emotionally involved with people. 

I crave human connection, but instead I am putting all of energy into my ever faithful running shoes and a battered old journal. 

There is more to say, but its not really coming out the way I would like it too. 

My Song of the Day: Never There-Cake